Hephzibah

I find the concept of purpose scary… Or at least, I have in recent times found it so.

“Having to become something, do something meaningful, be intentional about many things. Sometimes (most times), I just want to “be”. No consequences, no repercussions… just live life at my own pace. Sleep and wake up when I feel like, work when I feel like, and just be comfortable enough to live in my cozy quiet corner”

I was thinking about these one night and the question popped in my mind, “what does it even mean to ‘be’?” Does it have anything to do with the things I was wishing for earlier, or is there something else?

I remember the story in Luke 10, where Jesus visits Martha and Mary. I’d spare the details and just focus on what Jesus said to Martha when she complained that Mary wasn’t much of a help considering the amount of hosting work that had to be done.

“Luke 10:41-42 NLT
[41] But the Lord said to her, “My dear Martha, you are worried and upset over all these details! [42] There is only one thing worth being concerned about. Mary has discovered it, and it will not be taken away from her.”

I cannot begin to explain how much I’ve pondered on that story, but here’s one thing I have come to understand…

‘Doing’ is important. ‘Achieving’ is beautiful! However, when push comes to shove and the story is to be told, what matters more is who we are and become in the process and through the journey… both in the sight of God and that of humanity.

I have also come to understand that it is in becoming that we do. Doing something beautiful for/to a person you love starts from being with and spending time with them in the first place. That’s when you get to know what makes them happy and you go out of your way to make them feel good all the time. It’s the same thing with us and God. He made us and has all our details, so there can be no proper ‘doing’ outside of Him.

It all starts with a Choice. Moses said to the Israelites in Deuteronomy 30:19 that “I have set before you life and death… therefore choose life, that you and your descendants may live…”

This choice is in partnering with God all day everyday. To go where He leads, sit where he commands, and just cleave to Him every step of the way.

With this, the concept of purpose isn’t so scary anymore (I hope😩)… because it is in the little acts of obedience that eventually leed to mighty oceans when we take stock in time.

So, in 2026, I am choosing to be held my God and partner with Him. I am choosing to get rid of fear and step out audaciously. I am choosing to show up when I need to and consistently too. I am choosing to never let go of my child-like wonder and heart. I am also choosing not to let cobwebs fill up this space again🫣.

I have no fancy bucket list for the year. But this one thing I know… to love the Lord like never before and live each day for Him.

So help me God!

To the person reading this, would you make this choice too?

I hope it’s not too late to say Happy new year🙈

Hephzibah🩷